During my childhood and part of adulthood, I had depression and suffered from a lack of confidence and motivation for many years. My mental health was not well for many years.  The problems started when I was very young within my family.

I grew up in a home with many discussions and fights between my parents. My mom was mentally and emotionally unstable. Due to these problems, our relationship was very complicated affecting my overall health. Therefore,  I developed asthmatic bronchitis that persisted for many years until my twenties. Depression comes together with it. The condition worsened when my parents separated, and my dad left us with her. I felt alone and was embarrassed to discuss these problems with anyone. Once, I tried to talk to someone in school but could not find any emotional support.

The depression caused me deep sadness, lack of confidence, difficulties concentrating at school (my writing skills were inferior in school), and creating goals over the years. In addition, when I was 18, I was diagnosed with a benign tumor in one of my ovaries. Unfortunately, it had to be removed, causing me hormonal issues over time. At 19 years old, I was in my most profound sadness and anxiety and had constantly prayed not to wake up the next day.